The Daily Pegasus

What activities do you lose yourself in?

    To all of the weirdos, the freaks, the outcasts, the rejects, the lone wolves, the rebels, the conspiracy theorists, the truth seekers, I see you. You are who I make this post to; this entire blog is dedicated to you actually. Why? Because I’m one of you. I too, don’t fit the mold of society. I too, travel at the beat of my own drums. I too, ask deeper questions that often leave others puzzled. In fact I’m also asking a critical thinking question. It’s what helps me understand the world around me, and so far I’ve come to understand this: there’s always more to understand.

    “There are known-knowns, and known-unknowns; things that we know, we don’t know. But then there’s unknown-unknowns. Things that we don’t even know, that we don’t know.”

— Gin Rummy, Boondocks

    I’m always searching for truth. Why? Freedom. Truth is what helps us both understand, and construct the world. From there, we have power and freedom in this realm. Thanks to math and physics, we’ve learned the truth about geometry, gravity, and things of the sort.. that we now have the ability to build. Thanks to chemistry, that we’ve learned the truth about how substances work, that we now have medicine. Thanks to engineering that we’ve learned how electricity works. Now we’re all communicating with each other across the world, spreading more truths. So you see how truth grants us freedom here in this dimension? There’s a tricky thing about truth however. It’s infinite. So the search for truth will be an endless journey. Which brings us back. Why am I always doing it? Because it’s a source of endless fun. Whether it’s diving deep into spiritual concepts, learning about psychology and sociology, connecting the dots between the government’s actions, or simply diving deeper into my own creative talents, I’ve always been a deep diver.

    The way I see it, there’s more to this life then we’ll ever know, at least in this lifetime. It’s impossible from our human perspective to fully see the bigger picture of life. We’re too busy living it, it’s integrated with us. Therefore, I don’t believe anyone who’s still alive, has all of the answer nor ever will.

     That’s predominantly why I left Christianity when I was 6 years old. There were too many unanswered questions. It started early for me. I never could understand why certain things in the Bible were so fantasy like, like my other stories, yet I was to understand those weren’t real yet this was. I just couldn’t wrap my head around the supposed “fact” that only one man was the direct product of God, was able to perform all of these miracles, and I’m supposed to somehow follow in his footsteps.. it just didn’t make sense. “So you’re telling me, these a spirit that knows EVERYTHING? Yet they created something as evil as the Devil? Why would God create his own enemy? Why would he just torment us like that? Why did people hear God enough to write the Bible “in his words” but we can’t?” And you know sometimes people would actually try to answer one of these questions, only to give some dumb ass answer that only pushed me away from the religion even more. They’ll say something like “God originally created the Devil as a perfect angel. God also gives us all free will. It was the Devil’s free will to rebel against God.” Or “God doesn’t speak to us anymore because he’s upset with how we live now.”

    From a spiritual perspective, I feel like I understand the answer to all of this. “God and the devil aren’t enemies. They aren’t fighting. They’re not even seperate. They’re one in the same energy, that must exist for the other to exist. Both are you, for we all have shadows. God is simply experiencing itself through all of its creations for the sake of more creating. For the sake of deeper understanding of that ultimate truth.” But from a religious perspective, it just leads me to more questions. I mean truly, both leads me to more questioning, but religiously it just sends me in circles. There’s no logic. You could say the same for spirituality as well, but at least with spirituality, you can look at life as your teacher instead of a book which ultimately comes from another human.. bringing us back to no one knows.

    Even having a spiritual perspective of God, doesn’t mean the questions stop there. Now you know, God is in you, as all of us; but it’s your responsibility to bring that out of you. Once you know better, you do better. Now that you understand the divine power has actually been within you the whole time, now you have to start living up to that potential, which takes great change. That’s where more questions come, centered around—how to grow into the human you’re  supposed to be, effectively.

    But you see, my truth seeking doesn’t even stop there. After I left religion, before I even got into spirituality, I got into conspiracy theories lol. Now I’m not some crazed tin-foil hat wearing conspiracy theorist, but then again, I don’t trust institutions in their actions nor words. It’s almost imperative to be a truth seekers in this domain, because if you don’t know the truth, it’ll be used against you. The truth will set you free. That’s why they used to burn books (and still do in some cases). They’ll wipe away your history, feed you a new history (via indoctrination through public schools), so they can manipulate you and keep you in control. People write their truths down, and others read them. Then new truths are forms, or lost ones are found. If black people were able to read during slavery, they may have found a book detailing the history of vast African empires and long wealthy bloodlines.

    Which brings us to the subjectivity of truth. Truth is infinite because it’s subjective. What’s true to you, may not be true to me. That’s why there’s different, everything lol. Different parties in politics, different items on the menu, different places to work. Diversity is truth. Two equally opposing things can both be true. For example, it’s true that a gunshot to the head is lethal. It’d actually true, that’s how my father died. It’s also true that multiple people have and will survive such an injury. So it’s like, the truth isn’t always true.. depending on where you’re standing.

    That’s the very reason why I lose myself in activities of truth seeking. Reading, creating, communicating. There’s endless truths to be explored out there, and you’ll never get to them all. So it’s not about “getting to the bottom of it.” There’s nothing to get to the bottom of. That’s probably another reason why truth is infinite, because there is no truth. It’s all an illusion, the maya. From another aspect, if everything can be true—at least in a particular point in time from a particular perspective—then technically the same is true for lies. Thus, it’s all both a true and a lie? From there, it’s comes down to pure creativity. What truth will you create towards?